Terrible terrible headache

I just have to write about this. This is the day (TODAY) when I felt so excited, depressed, happy, confused, determined, desperate, frustrated, and so ALIVE. My co-worker told us that this week's going to be her last week to work with us. She'll be leaving for UK on the 3rd of Oct. She needs time to prepare, bond with her family and whatever it is that she needs to do, she has to do before she leaves. I'm happy for her! Now I'm wondering what happened to my application for Australia. No word or whatsoever communication from the nursing board yet. Oh well. I guess I'll just have to wait a little longer. Sometimes it's frustrating to wait. (OH MY GOSH!!!! J replied to my tweet last Sept. 13!!!!!! I tweeted him "have fun in Davao" and he replied. "Thanks! Davao = WOW") Thanks J! You made my day. Going back. I've been thinking a lot the whole day - Read the paper and I saw a CAR. I texted my friend right away. I wanted to know how much I'm going to pay monthly for a certain number of years if my downpayment is this and that and blah blah, etc. I've been looking for a car. Brand new or not, still undecided. But I wanted another car. I have also been planning to have our car repainted. Anyway, I was also thinking on buying a house. I wanted to have a house near the city. We won't be selling our house though. I just want another house. I wanted to travel. I told myself, I should be able to travel to ten countries in ten years. Ten in Ten. All these are keeping me alive. Determined. Happy.
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Sometimes you just can't compete with "fate". But they say, sometimes it's a good thing. Maybe it is, maybe it's not. But I won't let this get in the way of fulfilling my dreams, getting what I want and enjoying life.
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Today, I was asked when I'm going to get married. And my answer was, "I don't want to get married." I just want to travel and travel and travel. "Don't you want to have kids?" they asked. And I smiled and said "hmmm Not now. Maybe I'll just adopt one" :D (Good answer.) LOL