can I be selfish? even for 3 seconds?

I wanna go somewhere, and not come back. If I can just do that. I just wanna be alone and cry, even for a day...please...I want to have that moment, on my own, alone, crying my heart out...I don't want to have to think about what others might say.

I am Heartless. Numb. yet happy. or trying to be happy. WTH.