numb

My Heart stopped beating

For seconds I stared blankly into space

I didn't move

I didn't want to breath

Yet, I need to...

My mind was lost

My mind wandered...

Lingered at the thought of you

But couldn't find the peace that the heart is searching

Tried to find its way back to reality

My mind is still lost...

And so i scream

I silently scream...

A WANDERING HEART AND MIND

black black heart

A heart that has once stopped...

A heart that has been crushed...

A heart that has grown cold..

When burned even in the strongest flames (of love),

it would remain cold and unburned...

But, by chance and by choice,

In the right time,

The touch of the right one...

can set it on fire again.

Slowly it starts to beat weakly,

Slowly the ice melts,

Slowly it heals,

pumping stronger by each minute.

The rush of warm love gives it new life...

And you feel it.

The warmth of emotion,

of blood rushing,

filling each dead space,

mending each piece.

No matter how hard you try to fight it,

as it grows stronger each day,

you know there is no turning back

And that's what SCARES me...

=shine=

hugs

I don't want you to hug me when I'm sad, when I'm scared, when I cry...

'Coz when the time will come when our love will fall apart,

I don't want to find myself longing for that hug when I know you wouldn't be there anymore...

exam week

I miss blogging....seriously.

Med school has been so hectic, yet fun. I love the fact that I'm in school again, only this time it's 10 times harder. Sleepless nights, epic fail in exams ( sadly i haven't passed a single exam yet) haha. I have to push myself more.....more and more... I'm loving what I'm doing. This is what I really wanted and I have to do good in this. I know I can do better. The most important thing is that I'm HAPPY.

Chords Of Strength by David Archuleta

It was nothing that I've expected to come from David Archuleta himself. I guess I really do not know him, WE the fans do not know him that deeply, aside from the fact that he's really very nice to people and to his fans most especially. But this book is a very deep affirmation of that goodness that we see in him, from how he treats his fans and the people whom he works with, to the way he talks, the way he smiles, the way he sings, his belief, and just how genuinely good he is inside and out.

This book is truly inspiring. To a true fan like myself, this book will surely make you laugh, cry and smile. From the very start to the end, I find him very consistent and very clear on what he's really trying to convey to the readers; his purpose, his drive and his belief. To have this book is truly a gift from David. It is through this book that we get to know him a bit more. Here, he shows how mature he is deep inside (though he looks oh so young physically), it's Amazing!

The purpose of this book goes beyond knowing more about David but sending a very important message on believing in one's dream, SELFLESSNESS, perseverance, trusting in one's instincts , believing in the power of prayer and deepening one's relationship with the Heavenly Father .

I know I would read this book all over again and again and would share this to everyone, because this book has touched me, has inspired me and has brought joy and healing to my soul.

I just had to mention the last line though: "And remember, even you can't sing, you can always plant a tree..." haha. yes, that's how he got his EAGLE!!



(I had to be extra careful in handling the book though, since there were times when tears would just fall, and you don't wanna ruin a page, do you? I wish I could just highlight some lines and dog ear some pages that contains the lines and phrases that struck me most, but no, this book is way too precious. )


Shine La Rosa

Am I strong...?

I don't know if I'm stronger than I think I am...
In my mind I always think that I can do it,
But can I really do it?
Is it right to set my standards so high for myself?
Am I focused enough?
Can I really do this?
Is my determination enough?
I've told myself a million times that I CAN
and that I WILL...
I will stay on TOP. I will beat them ALL.
I hope I can.

a sad week.

Two weeks ago, I was all so excited for my HongKong and Macau trip with my cousins. Five days before we're suppose to leave for our trip, I got a phone call from my Aunt asking me why I didn't show up for my Scholarship interview. I'm like "WHAAAAT!?!? I didn't know about this?? I was expecting to get a call from the school or anybody to inform me on the schedule!" Oh they just posted it on the bulletin board. Lucky me! There's still one more schedule left, May 27. HAHA. Not so lucky me. I would be in Macau by then. So I cried and cried and cried 'til there's no more tears left to cry. I know I don't have a choice. And I know this is way more important than my trip. But I still cried. I cried my heart out. . .

When things don't happen the way you like them to happen, then you should know that there's something much much better to happen that's in store for you. . . Everything has a purpose.

I should keep that in mind.

A month to go before my exam. and i'm freaking out. looking at the questions of the reviewer, gosh, is so frustrating.
I haven't been online for weeks.
oh there's something i need to do... Write an intent letter to the dean so i can get a scholarship for med school. Heaven Help Me.